trying to relax

trying to relax,
admist
waves of agony-

it takes much effort.
i am all worn out.
from pain and nauseous stomach aches.

I feel dull aches everywhere.
I accept this as my fate.
My allotted due, in life.

to deal with
chronic pain
and to shut up
to not complain.

it does no good
to admit, I do not feel fit.
that i stay in bed most days.

that i do not even want
to leave my house.
trying to relax.

it is just so hard-
when everything hurts-
so much.

i try to relax,
to not feel sad-when
the pain gets bad.

because i know,
nothing will help.
i just got to keep on keeping on.

to hope for the best,
and leave the rest
along the wayside...